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Joint Traumafession :: Unk & Mickster on “Hush”

July 22nd, 2014 by unkle lancifer · 10 Comments

The other day (read months ago) my old pal Mickster and I were talking about what else, scary crap that scared us. I mentioned to her that one thing people seem to underestimate is the importance of when you view something. I’m not talking about what age; I’m talking about what mind frame. In other words if a tornado recently killed your favorite cow, it’s the wrong time to watch TWISTER. I didn’t use that dumb example whilst talking with the Mickster. Instead I told her of an ancient dark memory that took place in the chilling nightmare winter of 1999. I was going through a depressing break-up, no doubt imagining a long grey road ahead and I decided that the perfect thing to watch was BUFFY THE VAPIRE SLAYER as it was sure to cheer me up because many of my imaginary pals live on that show. The episode airing that evening was “Hush” which pitted Buffy and cohorts against a small tribe of grimacing floating demons that hung around with shifty creatures in straightjackets. At some point during the episode, I was surprised to find myself morbidly horrified in a way I could not have predicted. Mind you, it wasn’t fear I felt but a kind of pessimist nausea mixed with an inescapable sense of doom. I was going to die alone and the universe couldn’t hold in its giggle.

Upon hearing my confession Mickster revealed that she, my unmet friend, on the same evening albeit in a different time zone was experiencing a similar encounter with the episode. With her permission, here is her story…

On December 13, 1999, I underwent surgery for the second time in a three-week period. It was an unpleasant experience that was compounded by the fact that I was 2,000 miles from my family, and my husband, at the time, was a worthless alcoholic that dumped me at the hospital to go through it all alone. The next day, I was in a great deal of pain from the surgery and gas pain that accompanies surgery as well. I was hooked up to a morphine pump to manage the pain. As I struggled to become comfortable on the evening of December 14, I looked for something to watch on TV. I was delighted to find an episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer just starting. The evening was about to become memorable, as this was the episode titled “Hush.” As I watched, the “Gentlemen” stealing hearts from victims who were unable to scream naturally disturbed me, but I was also aware that it was kind of a metaphor for my life at the time. I felt as though I had no voice, as my heart was slowly being ripped from my chest day-by-day and year-by-year. In fact, the pain from the surgery did not compare to my emotional pain. Who would think that an episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer would force me to recognize the real pain in my life? It took me a bit longer to gain my voice to destroy the “Gentleman” that was ripping at my heart than it did Buffy, but I eventually did. Thanks, Buffy the Vampire Slayer (and the morphine) for opening my eyes.

O.K., Mickster’s story kind of makes my story sound like a Haagen-Dazs stained Cathy comic. What can I say? I’m easily discombobulated. Egad, what kind of cad leaves his wife in the hospital? And what kind of person still uses the word “cad”? Anyway, the point remains, when one is in a fragile state of mind they are that much more vulnerable to the creeps. Why just recently Kindertrauma Castle was under siege by miniscule calamities of one sort or another and I thought I might escape by falling asleep to a scratchy HORROR HOTEL VHS tape. I didn’t get half way through the gloomy chant-filled opening credits before I decided to nix that plan and switch to XANADU. I may have even quoted LaWANDA PAGE in MAUSOLEUM (1983) by exclaiming “No more grieving, I’m leaving!” as I pulled out the tape. Incidentally, I want that quote carved on my tombstone.

On the other hand let’s not overlook the fact that the “Gentleman” are indeed legitimately off-putting even in the lightest of circumstances. I mean, they’re like POLTERGEIST 2’s Reverend Kane crossed with the chauffer from BURNT OFFERINGS, shmooshed with PHANTASM’s “Tall Man” piled up with any number of ghouls from THE SENTINEL, times four and with a dollop of Mr. Burns and “The Slender Man” on the side. Worse still, and this may be where I outdo Mickster on the trauma front, when I look in the mirror I know the years before I resemble one are few! Oh no, now I’m getting depressed again, is it getting darker in here? Where is my XANADU tape? What cruel inhuman monster would hide it?

Tags: Traumafessions

10 responses so far ↓

  • 1 darkkoNo Gravatar // Jul 22, 2014 at 3:33 pm

    Great post!
    Thanks for sharing Mickster!

  • 2 Dylan Donnie-DukeNo Gravatar // Jul 22, 2014 at 3:34 pm

    Ooof! When it comes to Buffy catharsis, oh, how I can relate. While not with this episode in particular, but with the general sentiment. Not long after my dad died suddenly I decided to escape to the solace of Sunnydale. I chose Season 5, because Glory.
    What had I forgotten? “The Body,” of course. At the end if Ep. 15, the whimsy of Warren’s fembot debacle, Buffy returns home to a cold, cold Joyce. How had I forgotten that? I debated stopping right there and watching Angel get turned into a puppet, instead. Finally, I gave in and watched Ep. 16. It was either the smartest thing for me to do, or the absolute dumbest. Nine years on and I am still not sure which.
    It certainly ran me right back through the same emotional wringer through which I had just been squeezed. I gave up of the rest of the season at that point and curled up with my Harry Potter books instead. At least his dead folks would show up to say, “howdy” from time to time. I hope that Buffy doesn’t take this as blasphemous and smite me.

  • 3 unkle lanciferNo Gravatar // Jul 22, 2014 at 5:38 pm

    I second that darkko emotion, Thanks Mickster and sorry it took me so long to get this together!

    DD-D, That episode is devastating and surely the hardest to watch in the series- brilliant though it may be. You are a brave soul for going there at that difficult time. I have to admit that my understanding of death is pretty much on par with Anya’s “It’s stupid! It’s mortal and stupid! ”

    Don’t worry, I think Buffy more than anyone understands that sometimes it’s best to leave Sunnydale for a while.The good thing is that it’s always there when you want to return. I also agree that puppet Angel is like Xanadu, the cure for everything.

  • 4 Dylan Donnie-DukeNo Gravatar // Jul 22, 2014 at 5:49 pm

    By the way, thanks to you and Mickster for sharing these!

  • 5 unkle lanciferNo Gravatar // Jul 22, 2014 at 6:38 pm

    Thanks for your story DDD! It does my heart good to know that there are fellow BTVS fans reading KT. 🙂

  • 6 micksterNo Gravatar // Jul 22, 2014 at 9:09 pm

    Thanks y’all! It is always good to share with my KinderPals!
    Unkle, I find the Kira/Gentleman morph disturbing and funny at the same time.

  • 7 lottie_of_millhavenNo Gravatar // Jul 23, 2014 at 12:07 pm

    My partner and I are actually re-watching our way through Buffy right now,two episodes a week. This week just happened to be Hush. It got us talking about how even though we are both big horror fans, this freaking episode, along with The Body and Seeing Red(shuddercry) are almost too much for us.

    And yes, Unk, there are fellow Buffy fans reading, we are legion :)!

  • 8 unkle lanciferNo Gravatar // Jul 23, 2014 at 9:25 pm

    Thanks again Mickster! I don’t think that Kira/Gentlemen image came out the way I imagined but I had to include it anyway.

    Lottie, You’re right “Seeing Red” is not an easy watch either although I have to say Dark Willow is almost worth it. What a season that was.

    I think my favorite part in “Hush” is when Giles’ gal pal gets up and looks out the window and you see the gentleman vaguely in the background and then all of the sudden one zooms by super close. It’s such a well orchestrated scare. So good.

  • 9 PinchyNo Gravatar // Aug 2, 2014 at 3:35 pm

    I’d made fun of my friends for watching the show without having seen a single episode…until this one aired. THIS was the very first episode I watched which, obviously, hooked me instantly and forced me to eat my words.

  • 10 micksterNo Gravatar // Aug 3, 2014 at 10:02 pm

    Wow! That would be the episode to hook someone for sure, Pinchy!

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